These words haunted me once years ago, and they found me again tonight when I watched the made-for-TV movie of Sue Kidd Monk’s novel The Mermaid Chair.
I’m weary, heart-sore and sad…my head is full of ideas and wanna-be deep thoughts. I am searching for something, but I don’t know exactly what it is or how to find it. I once thought that I was looking for the love of a good man. Now that thought makes me laugh. I thought perhaps I was searching for God…but I don’t know about that one either. Perhaps I’m simply searching for myself?
The Serenity Prayer has been winking out at me from the edges of memory for a few days so perhaps I should end with that tonight. Many people only know the first section of this poem but I find the second portion quealy insightful.
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen. –Reinhold Niebuhr